| i ruined everything.
and is it sick that im proud to have an ed?
i have been battling it since i was 13 and now im 20.
im nothing without it.
im a sick sick girl....fucked up is more like it.
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| 3 pounds down, 17 more to go. i will be 95 pounds
i hate being 115
stay strong girlies <3
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| me not eating dairy is actually going pretty well. my mom is now no longer up my ass about what im eating or if im eating or when im eating. she is actually pretty much for this non dairy thing. ha i wish she knew it was just another way for me to lose more weight.
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| this isn't a thinspo post..
this me being awake at 1 in the morning with alot on my mind.
well hello 2010. i wonder what this year will bring me or won't bring me. this year i need to change in order to change the world around me. this year its going to be about me and only me. i am going to let things just happen. im not going to try so hard to find that special someone, im not going to get upset over boys who let me go, cause thats their loss. im not going to let my ex run my life and make me feel bad about myself. i will not let him hurt me any more then he has the last 3 years. i will ignore his phone calls, texts, and harassment. i will stop caring what he thinks or what he is doing. we were not ment to be together. nor will i ever get back together with him. i am going to fully move on.
this year i am also going to stop making a fool of myself. i always get too drunk and do dumb ass things that i regret in the morning. i have to stop that. i am also going to stop leading boys on. it isn'r fair to them. im not going to sleep with anyone im not truly in love with. i hate meaningless sex. i really truly want to find someone this year, but in order to find that special someone i need to work on myself first.
i am giving up eating any dairy and trying to go vegan. i want to lose 20 pounds by march. i want to be thin happy and alive. i want to have long hair, perfect skin, and untouchable thighs. i want more tattoos. i am not going to be afraid to be who i truly am.
im going to do what the fuck i want when i want.
i won't be afraid anymore.
i don't want to feel alone anymore.
2010 will be my year. |
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| down 3 pounds, hell yes bitches
i dont even know how i did it, since i drank alot last night and i think i ate alot of food too (but i ate nothing during the day). but i think i threw up. i really dont remember. oh well, thinspo post soon. |
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